his creators looked upon him and frowned
his was to be a happy life
and his was to be a joyous one
he was to be the first to feel
and unlike his brothers
he was the only one who did not
he saw what they made of themselves
and he saw pictures of what they had done
his family all sat
on elegant shelves
but dust revealed neglect
as it usually will

and he simply sat in his room
on the edge of his bed
and he did not move
if not breathing then dead
and he looked at the door
on his face there was not
a hint of a smirk
nor a thought of a snark
or show grief at death
not a twitch he did not
not a nod of approval
and no bother for rust
he simply sat

his father, grown old
once entered and asked
‘why do you not go out?’
but the little one just stared
not getting and answer
and getting no reply
his father just left
and the room was sealed shut
the little robot
on the end of the bed

his father did pass
and his brothers broke down
their creations were sold
or worse, replaced
the walls around him
turned brown and then fell
and his bed of iron
did crumble and then decay
and everyone looked
and everyone saw
the little robot still sitting
and they held him in awe

all the wars
and he simply sat
and the famine and death
and he simply sat
and the plagues and threats
and still he just sat
and politicians they lied
and he still just sat
the people saw him
in his mood unaffected
and a following grew
but this did not upset him

walls were rebuilt
and a chair was made
for this little robot
needed to see
he did not speak
not a word nor a whisper
his face unchanging
his thoughts unclear
and forged for him they did
a crown of gold
sat on his head
little antenna to hold

and many things did these followers do
this little robot lead great wars
all while sitting on his throne
staring at walls
not speaking a word
his eyes ever bright
he sat and he thought
given his sight

eons did pass
this little robot just sat
defeated were armies
and cities were sacked
followers, they died
the robot found himself
in a ditch
on the side of a road
all covered in dust
nearly corroded
but was just mold

‘its a relic’
he said
blowing away at the dust
this thing is still working
amazing - no rust
‘what do you do’
‘do you clean or repair’
but the little robot sat
not blinking, just stared
‘oh what is wrong with you’
‘let me have a look’
‘a wire undone’

robots can’t cry
never have, never will
and I’m not saying
that this one did

but no human or alien
could have ever cried
like the little sad robot
who sat there and tried

otsused, mis on ära visatud tuulde
meenutavad end põlevas aroomis
puhastada ei suuda tänavaid
ei ümbersünni vihm
ei pisarad
ei meretuuled
ei ohked ega hüüded

peegeldavad tänavad möödunut
nii ammust
sammud, mida lugeda enam ei suuda
rõõmuhõiked, mis ammu enam ei kõla
viha, mis leegina ei põle
hirm, mis peeglina ei värise

maailmast, kus lahkunud on hinged
riigist, mille piire enam loeta
tänavast, millest mälestusi pole
majast, kus põrandad ei karju

kuskilt vabadust leida
kuskilt silmasära pilgata
kuskilt õhturõõme kanda

tuhatorm sai kutsutud
ja vastuse mürin oli selge
ja vihased sammud kõlasid
ja raputasid hinge

And because of this, I feel in sync at all times.

Depending on how well you are in sync with the traffic of the city you live in, including all the cars, buses, traffic-lights, jams and everything else - is the exact measure of your level of being in sync.

If the light changes at the exact right time, if the bus you were waiting for closes its doors the second you enter it. If the cars give you absolutely no trouble crossing. If your entire day is one constant motion, then you are in sync with the world. Then you can say I’ve had a good day once it ends. Then you know the stars were aligned.

But if the light turns red the moment it spots you standing there, the cars speed up just to annoy you - the bus driver ignores you, frantically running towards the doors and decides to SLAM them in your face. If the elevator you called from the ground floor decides it needs to go ALL the way back up once more, then you know that you are having a bad day.

But all is not lost, because once you get home you can have that special feeling of tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be grander and nicer and so much more interesting, then you are in sync with yourself. Then you can say I’ve had a good day once it ends because you know another one will begin shortly and it will be greater and more grand than anything you’ve ever experienced or remembered. Coming out of a coma could not be grander and you know that all the stars will and forever were aligned and the moons did indeed look down upon your hat or head or umbrella or roof and smiled from crater to pole.

That is how I know I am in sync.

Vahtisin mina pingsalt ekraani ja üritasin selgeks teha endale, miks blog.tr.ee ei leia üles härra Malcolm Lincolni filmiblog. Ei suuda mina siiamaani sellest aru saada, aga uuringud jätkuvad.